I Want

I continue to struggle with picking my skin. As was the case previously, the weekends are the highest-risk time for me. After the tension of getting through the week is relieved and I find myself with more free time than usual, I use picking as a way to unwind and decompress. Of course the feeling is only temporary; once I realize what I have done, the tension returns anew. I want so much to overcome picking and to be free from it. I want to feel light in my body, be able to wear whatever suits my fancy, and not to feel so self-conscious. I want to free up the space in my mind that picking and the state of my skin are currently occupying. I want to move on, and move forward.